The last time you see her. Hug her and forgive her.
"All thoughts about you is suicide."
Soon it will rain.
I gain a little altitude to crash again.
Birds fly low.
How are you, without me?
Why are you so far away from me?
I can't reach you.
I look down at the clouds.
"Yes, everything is fine mom."
"Don't worry mom. Your daughter has long since become an adult that knows everything but herself."
But only eternal sleep will put in place
Everything that's in my head, they'll hear me there.
I want to wake up and never fall asleep again.
"What kind of person you've become?"
(I really wanted to be myself.)
So fucked up, It'll go worse for sure.
Nobody's looking for me, nobody needs me urgently.
I suffer again at night.